Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Abundance


Uganda.

It’s already been a week since traveling has started and my adventure in Uganda has begun.  So much has happened.  29 hours of travel through car, plane, tram, bus, and taxi.  The guy next to me on the plane got thrown up on.  I became family with all of the interns before the first flight even finished.  We arrived in Uganda around 10pm and didn’t leave the airport until after 12am waiting on our van to arrive.  Welcome to the Ugandan time schedule.  They have no sense of time here, which has been quite an adjustment.  It’s not a negative thing, but more of an opportunity to be in the moment.  We don’t have to worry about going and going without the chance to relax.  Now we have figured out to expect a delay, except for certain situations, which gives us more time to be intimate with the Lord. 

We have played with the kids from House 1.  I’ve already fallen in love with them.  Just like you said Carly.  Esau is the man of the house, he is 13, and holds a special place in my heart already.  He is such a good dancer.  Gilbert is now boarding so he doesn’t live here so I haven’t had the chance to meet/dance with him yet, but that’s not going to stop me.  We have 24 kids here at House 1 and it has been such a joy getting to know each one of them more and more since I’ve been here.  Ivan, Brian, Esau, Michael, Dennis, Weswa, Julius, Jingo, Eddy, Ronald, and Ibrah are the boys.  The girls are Fatumah, Doreen, Norah, Vanita, Gladys, Jalia, Fredah, Sharon, Debrah, Mercy, Vicky, and Vivian.  The kids here have given me the name Magumba and it has definitely stuck.  It means “bones” and I don’t have the slightest idea of why it was given to me.  They all call me Uncle Magumba.  Uncle and Auntie are the names that give to all of the interns and staff here in Uganda.  It is proper culture for an elder to be addressed as Uncle or Auntie, unless they are related and then they are Baba, or Papa, or Momma.

This journey has done nothing short of amaze me in ways I never expected.  The Lord’s favor has rested upon me and I’m completely humbled by His goodness.  He has met me here every morning and has provided me with blessings I never could’ve asked for.  I’ve grown closer with all of the interns and especially Dixon.  He is the only other male intern here at the moment; we are getting another guy halfway through the summer.  The internship is set up that there are 5 of us staying the entire summer, 8 leaving halfway through, and 4 more coming on in the middle.  I’ve been blown away by the love that these interns have for the Lord.  They never cease to proclaim His name as truth and are always expectant and waiting upon the Lord.  I’ve been encouraged to constantly pursue my relationship with the Lord and always look for opportunities to worship Him.  Creation has been a major link to the Lord for me since I’ve been here and I’m so thankful for His promise of new mercies every single day.

Allen, our leader here, and also my roommate in the states, has been absolutely incredible here.  The Lord has provided me with a newfound love for him and I don’t even have the words to explain my thankfulness for him being here.  Observing him in his element encourages me to be present where I am and never let a moment go by that I’m not grateful for the Lord’s blessings and provision over my life.  “My One Word” while I’m here is “stillness” and has been since the beginning of the year, and it is incredible to see how the Lord presents me with opportunities to practice stillness and waiting upon Him while I’ve been here.  While here we have been separated into groups of 4 interns that we will be moving with from home to home and within our groups we have also been asked to pick “One Word” for this summer.  We came up with Overflow.  Which is fitting for those of you who are in Wilmington and go to Overflow.  We’ve based it off of Romans 15:13 and 1 Thessalonians 3:12 which says, “May the Lord make your love increase and overflow for each other and for everyone else, just as ours does for you.

A prayer that I wrote down on the 26th as I laid down for bed (since, we have moved to House 2 where we will stay for 3 weeks):

Lord you are moving and it is so evident.  You have provided me with what my dream has been for so long; to live and take care of orphans.  It blows me away daily to know that I’m waking up to 19-orphaned children who just want to be loved.  I’m beyond thankful to be here. I pray for discernment and direction as well as peace and patience.  I also pray for my mind and especially my heart to remain focused on my purpose for being here.  Thank you for your amazing grace and love.

The kids in House 2:
Boys;                                       Girls:
Enock                                      Winnie
Remmy                                    Florence
Ambrose                                  Faith
Benja                                       Nyla
John                                         Sharon
Benard                                     Fiona
Eddy                                        Joan
Marvin                                     Josephine
Rosco                                       Janette
Solomon

My latest journal entry (because it’s easier to write down what I’ve journaled, but also leaving out the intimate things that only the Lord needs to know):

So many things, yet not one word…

Since I’ve arrived, just over a week ago, I’ve been in absolute awe of God’s beauty and faithfulness.  He has created Uganda to be an incredibly beautiful country and I’m so thankful to spend the summer, and maybe more, here.  I’ve grown close with the interns, the kids, and the staff here at the Sozo homes.  We are currently at House 2 and I love playing soccer with the boys.  We’ve had to learn to adapt to the culture of Uganda by being still.  As Americans we always want to be on the go, but culture requires us to slow down.  We’ve also learned to not get in the way or take control of day-to-day activities and obey the aunties and uncles just as the kids do.  We are here to help, not hurt, what is going on here.  Our view from this home is stunning.  It is like nothing I’ve ever seen and may in fact be one of the, if not the, most beautiful places I have ever been.  The peacefulness I’m able to experience while I’m here is unlike any other feeling I get in the US.  Paige said it so well yesterday: We don’t have different opportunities to be intimate with God while in Africa.  The Lord doesn’t see that we’ve traveled to Uganda and make Himself more prevalent.  He is the same yesterday, today, and forever, no matter where we are.  But in any case I’m so thankful for the feeling that I can grow closer to the Lord here.  I just pray that it will translate back to the US.  The Lord has given me so much already and He continues to bless me.  I read today Matthew 13:12 which says, “Whoever has will be given more, and he will have an abundance.”  Which fits perfectly with our family’s one word for this summer, which is Overflow.  The Lord has given, and will give more, and as long as we are faithful and praise Him for what He has given He will give more so we will have abundance.  As a family we all have the desire to overflow with the fruit of the Spirit.  We want the Lord to fill us up daily, but to the point that we overflow with His joy, love, and grace for the people of Uganda and the world.  I have been blessed with an incredible family here including Paige, Carli, Emma, and Michelle.  I’ve already been tested and have learned a lot about each person, which has given me the opportunity to grow and to lead in new ways.  I’m so thankful for the team the Lord has put together out of His sovereignty.  Thank you Father, you are so good and I give you complete control.

This is just a small glimpse of what has happened thus far since my journey to Uganda began.  I hope some of you can relate with these stories or be inspired or encouraged by my writings.  I know if that is the Lord’s desire then He will use this blog for His glory.  Thank you for taking the time to read and listen to my rambling about my life here.  Know that I miss you all; my family and friends wherever you may be.  I don’t get internet to communicate with people until this upcoming Saturday because we are fasting from the internet so we can remain still with the Lord and focus on our agenda here.  But know I want to talk to you all very soon.  I love you all.

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

17 days and counting...

It finally happened.
I've gotten so much to the nearness of my trip that I've started a countdown.
I can't believe I will be on a plane in less than three weeks.
Here comes Africa.

But before we start advancing towards Africa I wanted to fill you in on a few things that have happened since March 27th, my last post.  A few things that went on:

Granddad's 95th birthday celebration
Reunion in Atlanta with old friends
Easter
Lunch with extended family
Made new friends
Growth in relationships here
Continued work at Chili's
Sozo Children's Adventure Race
Continued preparation for the trip
Family Vacation to Martha's Vineyard (finished the first two Hunger Games)
Sozo Beach Retreat in Florida
And now back into the swing of things here in Birmingham with work and life altogether.

It has been a pretty eventful April and I'm very thankful for that.  I've had the joy and opportunity to see old friends, make new friends, and continue to invest in the relationships that I've already created.

I'm continuing to be challenged daily when it comes to trusting the Lord wholeheartedly.  A huge area in my life that I am inserting a lot of doubt is in support raising.  For some reason it's so difficult for me to trust that God will provide what I need to do His work.  If it is His calling on my life, He will get me there.  And what amazes me even more is that this isn't my first time to raise support and it isn't my first time to doubt God's ability.  Time and time again He provides and shatters any thought of doubt I have in my mind, and yet it all comes rushing back as soon as I get the opportunity to take another trip.

I've talked a lot more with my friend Kristen who is on the World Race, which is an 11 month mission trip to 11 different countries.  She is now, or about to be, on her final month, her final country.  She has been blown away by God's faithfulness and His desire to show everyone just how much His children are in a desperate need of saving.  It has been so encouraging to talk with her and hear how this trip has impacted her life and her heart for the world.  Clearly I understand that my trip will not be the exact same, seeing as I'm only going to one country and it's for 3 months, but I don't doubt at all that God will work in ways that I can't even begin to fathom.  I also just started reading a book about a husband and wife who were living out the corporate, "American Dream," and knew it wasn't enough so they sold everything and begin a ministry in Portugal, that has thus spread to many other countries, including Sudan, where she has been saving the many orphaned people from the constant war that has continued to take place.  This story has encouraged me and challenged me in ways I never thought it would.  It has me thinking a lot about, "Am I strong enough or bold enough to live in another country, even if it means being alone for extended periods of time?"  "Do I have the faith to trust the Lord in every step to move overseas?" "Will I have the courage to tell the unknowing about our Known and Living Savior?"  I don't have the answers to all of these, but I pray I will have them revealed to me at some point as I begin the journey of taking this trip and figuring out my life from there.

The ever-increasing challenge of what's next is always running through my head.  I don't have an answer yet, and the more time I spend in Birmingham the harder it gets.  I broke down a few weeks ago to my roommates, and I'm not sure if it's because I was so overwhelmed with decisions, or if I just hadn't cried in a while, but I couldn't contain my tears.  I spilled out all of my thoughts on life and what I constantly have going through my head.  I miss Wilmington and the people there more than you could imagine, and since I've moved here I've always wanted to move back after August.  But the more and more time I spend in Birmingham the more I've fallen in love with this organization and the people here.  I told them that I feel as if my heart is being ripped in half.  Half of my heart is still in Wilmington with the students from Scott's Hill and my friends there, but the other half is continually being rooted and established in love for these people here.  And I can't even imagine what my heart will do once I fall in love with those kids in Uganda.  I haven't decided anything yet, but I fully believe this summer will give me a ton of time to think and process through everything and I trust that the Lord will provide me with direction.

So Africa is 17 days away.  I'm constantly trying to prepare myself for this adventure, but really how much preparation can you do before you leap into the unknown for 3 months.  I'll be going to Uganda and my duties will consist of, working in each of the three orphanages Sozo now has, as well as working with a partner orphanage we have in the local slum in Kampala.  It has been really difficult to mute my excitement for the past couple of weeks because all I want to do is get on a plane and get over there to see these kids and give them the love they never had the joy of receiving from their parents.  But I know that I should be living in the present, not just looking towards the future.  So I'm working on getting all of the resources I will need together as well as continuing to try to make, the little amount of money I'm getting from Chili's, last before my final day of work.

I want to thank all of you for taking the time to read this lengthy blog and I hope in some way it encourages you to "seek the Lord with all your heart" and "lean not on your own understanding" of what may occur in the world, or in your own life.  He's got that under control.  Something I could use prayer for is continued financial support.  Even though I leave in less than three weeks I still have to finish raising my support even while I'm gone, so prayers that the Lord will provide and that I will trust Him with that would be incredible.

Last thing, something really cool happened a few weeks ago.  I received a letter from someone I didn't know and she wrote in the letter that she had read my blog.  She went on to say that through my blog of my life (victories and struggles) she was encouraged and felt the urge to give.  Inside the letter was a check to support my trip this summer.  God always provides, even in ways you would never imagine.  So may this story encourage you to fully hear what the Lord is pressing upon you and support those who need it.

"Stop trusting in man, who has but a breath in his nostrils."
                                                                Isaiah 2:22

"The Lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and rich in love.  The Lord is good to all; he has compassion on all he has made.  All you have made will praise you, O Lord;"
                                                                Psalm 145:8-10

Carson